Birthday Time

Shrek and I are on vacation this week. I always make hubby take this upcoming week off as I really hate working on my birthday. My week went really well this past week and it showed this morning at the scales. Down another 5 pounds...woo hoo ! I am also happy to report that for the very first time I managed to snag 2 swimsuits off the rack and didn't have to order from a catalog. I am actually looking forward to my birthday this year. I have never enjoyed my birthday, usually way to many expectations on my part.

I tend to be impatient with myself. It is a truism in that no one is as hard on you as you yourself. Today at meeting people were talking about how they have been struggling as of late. My heart goes out to each and every one of my friends. Struggle is part and parcel of this craptastic process, like it or not. I struggle with my wants and cravings on a daily basis. Now when I am eating something that I know was not a wise choice on my part I try to stop for a second (which in and of itself is a tough flipping thing to accomplish)and ask myself why and what am I doing.

Sometimes it helps sometimes it doesn't. Now I log my feelings down beside the food I felt that I couldn't pass up. I don't dwell on how I have strayed. I put my journal aside and I try to make the next moment, hour, day better. When I have moved beyond the issue that helped me to seek food as a comfort I go back and read. I try to learn what set me off. Accept, learn, move on.

This is a journey that nevers ends. Fear not for we are not alone on this journey and if you just reach out your hand, someone will surely reach back.

Slowing Down

My weight loss has S-L-O-W-E-D D-O-W-N. Believe it or not I am happy about that. Now I feel like I can catch my breath and just maybe wear out some of my new panties. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever imagine that I would have to buy new underwear every few months.

As a Large Marge I was pretty much relegated to certain let's say granny panties but the new me can wear nicer,sexier under things and I just find that so cool. I am happy that my weight loss has slowed down. Now I can learn to enjoy the smaller me. It has been weird to see myself in a mirror. I never realized before just how small my frame is. I recently discovered that I , like most people, do indeed possess collarbones.

I was at my local Target store a week or so back and for the first time in a long, long time I purchased 2 very cute mini skorts. Skorts I say because well I am just not ready for just a skirt ! I don't think that the people I work with are ready to view that much of me if I forget and bend without thinking... the summer has great things in store for me I can just feel it.

This weekend up and coming I am going in search of a swim suit. Shrek and I have been invited to a BBQ on July 4th and I aim to be seen. No more hiding for me. I have worked hard and battled valiantly. It is my turn to be in the winner's circle. Watch out world I have arrived. I know I will make it to goal. Never give up on the person you are meant to be.