I changed meeting time and day. I really like this meeting. Inspiration comes from the most unexpected places sometime. I find I look forward to attending this meeting. A different leader presents program in her own style. It makes something old hat feel like a pretty new ribbon has been added. I find the weekend works better for me. I work better for me. It is the next Wednesday rounding the corner before I know it. I feel I am more in control of my meal planning, my emotions, my time. I am happy with my decision to leave the other meeting as tough as it was to make.
I loved my Sunday meeting. I lost the bulk of my hulk at that meeting. We all change, slowly but change happens whether you are ready for it or not. I think I outgrew my old meeting. Though maybe in truth I shrunk out of my old meeting. Whatever the truth I began to feel like I needed something more for myself. Sometimes the most obvious solution to a problem is the easiest fix. I just didn't think I could trust myself with that answer. Reach out for the light switch if the room is too dark. Don't cower in the shadows waiting for the dawn. Be the light in your life that you are looking for.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
New Meeting
I make no bones about the fact that I struggle. The journey to the "Land of Normal Sizes" is never over. I have learned how to lose weight. I have learned how to make better choices and yes, when I am in the "bubble" of things being in perfect alignment I have learned to cope better with my demons, those evil things that hang onto the edges of my soul, that I am convinced make it easier to fall out of the bubble and onto the platform of FML.
On program I feel healthy mentally and physically. I am happier and feel like I can accomplish whatever I set my mind to. I wish I could bottle that feeling; make it into a easy roll-on similar to deodorant for those times when you think you might need a boost. I decided last week that I needed to claw out of the rut I have allowed myself to wallow in. I picked a new meeting site; one that is closer to where I live, one that is more convenient to my life.
I enjoyed my first meeting in a new place, new time. The solution to a problem can be as simple as thinking outside the box or in my case stepping outside the box. See what is in the way from a different vantage point. This meeting is not the answer I seek. I am the answer. I am what was in the way!!!
What I need to accept is that at some point I will no longer be actively losing weight. I have learned that skill. It's the next skill that separates the losers from the maintainers. I will forever be holding those "need to feed" demons at bay. It is called maintenance. One journey ends as another begins.
On program I feel healthy mentally and physically. I am happier and feel like I can accomplish whatever I set my mind to. I wish I could bottle that feeling; make it into a easy roll-on similar to deodorant for those times when you think you might need a boost. I decided last week that I needed to claw out of the rut I have allowed myself to wallow in. I picked a new meeting site; one that is closer to where I live, one that is more convenient to my life.
I enjoyed my first meeting in a new place, new time. The solution to a problem can be as simple as thinking outside the box or in my case stepping outside the box. See what is in the way from a different vantage point. This meeting is not the answer I seek. I am the answer. I am what was in the way!!!
What I need to accept is that at some point I will no longer be actively losing weight. I have learned that skill. It's the next skill that separates the losers from the maintainers. I will forever be holding those "need to feed" demons at bay. It is called maintenance. One journey ends as another begins.
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