2012 is the year of the Dragon. I was born in the year of the Dragon many cycles ago. I have collected dragons since childhood. Its majestic beauty to appealing not to. I've always felt that people born under this Chinese symbol to be magical. The Dragon is the only mythical creature on the list of animals contained within the Chinese Zodiac.
I am a mighty Dragon. You may wondering, "ok but what does this have to do with weight loss and the journey to a normal size?" Just a feeling I have that this YEAR is MINE. This is the year I will cross the finish line to start a new, better race. One that be will be harder in almost every aspect but I am ready to claim my victory. I am going to attend a meeting a week to help me to reach my goal. I will ask for help if I feel like my success is slipping from my grasp. I will plan as much of my menus and activities as possible and I will have fun. I am going to try to put forth my best effort. I am worth the trip. I better get my asscake moving too, this year is almost 1/2 gone already.
Monday, June 11, 2012
I Found the Right MR. RIGHT
I haven't blogged in nearly six months. I haven't tracked my food or paid attention to what I have shoveled into my gullet for longer. I have been an idiot. I have been selfish, angry, and hateful. I gave up on myself. Instead of turning to my life partner to talk and ask for his support I tried to push him away. He has stood firmly by my side. I am not sure I will ever understand what I did to capture his love but I am ever thankful I did.
My hubby never gives up on me. He believes in me and encourages me on my journey even when I DON'T show up. He will not let me quit WW or myself. Somehow I got lucky and found my Mr. Right.
In early July a friend of ours will be gliding down the aisle to exchange vows with her Mr. Right. I hope she will be as lucky as I have been. True love is not glitz and glitter. It is born of friendship, respect, and hard work. Our relationship is not perfect but we work around the crap and embrace the good. There is no other I want to spend my life with even on my worst day.
I started the program from scratch this morning. This time I am tracking online. I will try to fit in more physical activity. I am going to try to blog more, to be more positive, to show up so I can participate in my own life/success.
My hubby never gives up on me. He believes in me and encourages me on my journey even when I DON'T show up. He will not let me quit WW or myself. Somehow I got lucky and found my Mr. Right.
In early July a friend of ours will be gliding down the aisle to exchange vows with her Mr. Right. I hope she will be as lucky as I have been. True love is not glitz and glitter. It is born of friendship, respect, and hard work. Our relationship is not perfect but we work around the crap and embrace the good. There is no other I want to spend my life with even on my worst day.
I started the program from scratch this morning. This time I am tracking online. I will try to fit in more physical activity. I am going to try to blog more, to be more positive, to show up so I can participate in my own life/success.
Sunday, January 22, 2012
The Good The Bad and the Ugly
I don't want to be the headliner in my own sad news story. LargeMarge Gone Bad. Everytime I am on the path to finally being the best version of me I sabotage myself. The whys are the problem. Stress relief, cheap anger management, depression all cheap excuses but hell they'll do in a pinch. I have never tried to right myself once I have begun a slide towards the abyss.
The Good
I started my journey to a healthy weight in March 2007. I lost 145.6 pounds in fourteen months. I adopted a new attitude. I made better food choices. I managed my inner demons.
The Bad
Looking back I was so caught up in the moment I didn't take time to adjust to the new me. I felt insecure in the me I had created. I felt unsure of where to take my journey. I stopped trusting myself. In turn I stopped managing all aspects of getting to goal. I should have sought help instead of trying to figure things out for myself.
The Ugly
When I let things turn ugly they turn UGLY. I have walked away from my journey so often now I am pretty sure I am on a different trip. I have put a chunk of my weight back on. So much so that this ugly needs a new sweater to hide the rolls. I am angry, disappointed, depressed. I am tired of failing. The ugly truth is I have to start over again. I need to forget where I have come from and set my sights on where I want to end up.
The New Beginning
I deserve to become the best example of myself. I want to do this for me. This show is not over. I am worth the trip. I will see this journey through to the end.
The Good
I started my journey to a healthy weight in March 2007. I lost 145.6 pounds in fourteen months. I adopted a new attitude. I made better food choices. I managed my inner demons.
The Bad
Looking back I was so caught up in the moment I didn't take time to adjust to the new me. I felt insecure in the me I had created. I felt unsure of where to take my journey. I stopped trusting myself. In turn I stopped managing all aspects of getting to goal. I should have sought help instead of trying to figure things out for myself.
The Ugly
When I let things turn ugly they turn UGLY. I have walked away from my journey so often now I am pretty sure I am on a different trip. I have put a chunk of my weight back on. So much so that this ugly needs a new sweater to hide the rolls. I am angry, disappointed, depressed. I am tired of failing. The ugly truth is I have to start over again. I need to forget where I have come from and set my sights on where I want to end up.
The New Beginning
I deserve to become the best example of myself. I want to do this for me. This show is not over. I am worth the trip. I will see this journey through to the end.
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